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Morning pages/reflections, inkuary day 3: "Thinking about Malcolm Ocean's comment about how we are made to want to witness a beginner's mind. I'm doing a lot of "spaghetti-at-the-wall" posts lately, learning publicly both to hold myself accountable to it and to see what areas seem to be of interest to my audience. Cybernetics, computational semiotics, Al engineering, LLM coding, generative art, epistemology/knowledge work and analysis, game theory, game design, etc. I've been going wherever my interests lead me and seeing what happens. In my view, I have a high-quality following, and I'm not so sure why. I don't receive much explicit feedback, positive or negative, and the few times I've done intensive engagement analytics I haven't ended up with much clarity. When I've requested specific feedback from people who seem to find my account interesting, I've gotten a lot of "I don't really know what it is." So...literally, je ne sais quoi? Why might it be that someone could say "I like this but I'm not sure why?" I try not to be too frustrated by this; I think it's my puzzle to solve. But without being able to see myself from outside of myself, is it something I *can* figure out? I think this is where I keep coming back to the "affective value" thing. If it's not evoking cognitive reasons for what is compelling, it must be that it feels a certain way, right? I have this slightly ironic tweet about how my mediocrity is the value I provide, but I'm also hesitant to continue to self-deprecate in this way, even as a joke. There is something I find intriguing about Malcolm's comment, though. Why is it refreshing to witness a beginner? Does it relieve some kind of pressure in the space? Does it offload one's insecurities onto the Other? I shared a photo of a book I found in Chicago recently, called "The Cheerful Scapegoat." I have been called a Scapegoat numerous times throughout my life. My own father frequently called me a "Sin Eater." Is that it? And do I take on this role cheerfully? ...Should I post this for inkuary? Does it serve that very function if I do?"